Craig smith

Hey Craig.. Hope ur well. Haven't seen you on the forum in a while, so was a little worried. Wish u a happy new year bud.. Take care.. 

Mario

Hey Craig Smith! 

Hope all is well with you! 

Much love

Still fighting guys. 

I will be back to build again. 

Love to all at CG. 

Craig Smith. ❤️

11/9/2018

I hope college is going good hugge ?

Hi members/players. 

I tried to fight depression to quickly and it kicked me straight back down. 

I have taken a stance in that I will recover when I recover. 

There are no time lines or deadlines on my illness. It will go when it is ready. 

I am taking a step back from the site because I have to. 

I will recover and return. 

I will miss all my players but my health comes first. 

It's unreal what life can throw up at a person. But life is not easy. Us humans are made to battle and get through rough times. At some point the battle will end. 

Love to all and I hope you all keep on winning. 

An update, 

Craig Smith 

27/8/2018 ❤️

Hey Craig Smith - Hope you are doing well buddy!!

Day 23 living with depression. 

19/8/2018

Today I am a bit better. I watched a lot of huggehugg's stream today and it gave me focus, which gave me more relaxation, which allowed me to enjoy hugge's stream. 

I have maybe found something in if I can catch casinogrounds streamers streams it may help me to focus and relax. And overall help my depression. I cannot comment on twitch but that does not bother me. I am going to try this way of visual therapy in watching streams when I can. And I will see how it goes. 

So yeah a bit better today. Maybe found something I can use to help me. 

I will try and catch streams as much as I can. 

My heart is not 100 percent into commenting yet but from today I will slowly build again. The mind is such a tricky thing to overcome when it is not playing nice. 

Work in progress. 

Day 23,

Craig Smith. 

Day 22 living with depression. 

18/8/2018

Feel terrible. 

Logged in and tried to do a bit. My heart was not in commenting today. But I felt I had to try and help superfrenchy with his slot bug problem. 

I'm dipping again, relapsing backwards. I have not tried to fight depression since the middle of the week. 

Again I think the only healer will be time. I have medication. Support. But I am not putting any time line on when I will come out of my depression. 

I have no idea how long I will be like I am. 

It's like having someone stand on my head, my head feels like a heavy stone, and trying to enjoy anything is so hard. Cannot be bothered with much. 

I was doing OK and I felt I was picking up, but I relapsed and I no I was thinking I was going to be rid of it quickly. And it has hit back. 

Time will be the healer. I am accepting that. 

Craig smith

18/8/2018

Hi members. 

Day 21 fighting depression.

This is 17/8/2018.

Felt not so good last time i was on the site. Which was the morning of weds 15th august.

To be honest i could not be bothered one bit yesterday thursday 16 th august and i was drifting away from coming back to the site.

Today the 17 th august i have logged in and done some comments. My mood is down.

I am not 100 percent with it. I have relapsed a bit from the good work i was doing. 

I think im going to have swings like this. And yeah the mood is down. I have tried to do a bit today. But letting you guys no how i am at the moment. 

Still fighting depression. Relapsed a bit. Backwards. Just wanted to put a blanket over myself and do nothing..

It tough going my friends. ❤.

At least i have done something today. 

Day 21 living with depression.

Craig smith

17/8/2018.

Day 19 fighting depression, 

Went to bed late and got up early. Do not feel as good as yesterday morning.

I have been active on the site and did what i felt was enough. Just catching up to whare i think i should be.

Im getting support today. I have such a busy day. Probably part of the reason im up early.

But not feeling as good as yesterday. I will keep going forward though. The fight continues.

I will not give in now im up and fighting depression. 

Day 19. Not so good today.

15/8/2018.

Craig smith.

Hi all to players/members. Day 18 fighting depression. 

I have kinda hung around today on and off the site. 

It's a good sign because my intentions are thinking about my players and them winning. 

Comments to be made. But also some general chat with a couple of members. 

This is like a side note to my original day 18 update. 

Craig Smith. 

Day 18 fighting depression, 

Things were a bit weird today, I was up at 4 am on the toilet and kinda been back and forward for a few hours. I eventually settled and was woken up by the postman knocking on the door. This was at 10 am. 

It's weird because I was shocked into waking up today and reacted straight away. I could hardly speak to the postman but mumble thankyou. Because I sleep with a gum guard in. I grind my teeth so I am using a gum guard. 

I feel not to bad. My mind is in a different state being shocked up. 

This is Tuesday 14th August 2018 and I have been active on the site. I have done what I can and I will say today is a good day up until now. 

Day 18 fighting depression and I'm slowly beating it. I feel it. 

An incredible run of wins from @Radom on the forum. Awesome. Some real crackers in there. 

Love to all. ❤️

Craig Smith. 

Day 17 fighting depression.

Things are getting better all the time. Im taking 2 good days forward and 1 back. To look at it that way.

I do feel better. Things are slowly turning for the better. Not through it yet but definately feeling better.

Its nowhare near as bad as i felt over 2 weeks ago.

I continue to fight depression and be active on the forum.

13/8/2018.

❤To all.

Craig smith.

Day 16 fighting depression. 

Not as good as i felt yesterday but im active on the forum.

Commented on some good wins. Welcomed a new member in and wished good luck to a slot streamer who is stopping streaming/gambling.

Everyday im fighting and i think i will get through this. I remember what mark ( BTGking said to me and depression can be 1 step forward and 2 back. 

A steady day at a time. Thats what im doing. 

Love to all❤

The fight goes on.

Craig smith 12/8/2018.

Day 15 fighting depression.

On new medication which i have just started taking.

Feeling better but been on the toilet a lot this morning. I even feel better for that.

My mind is active now as oppose to a while ago whare i only lifted my head because mark ( @BTGKinG) got in touch with me.

I am on a steady rise and that key saying a day at a time is whats working, along with the amazing support from people here at casinogrounds.

I will stay the course of my medication.

Im active on the site. I cant thank the support enough. Im moving in the right direction.

Im also concious not to relapse and undo all the work i have done upto now.

Day at a time and all the tools are in place to see me through this. I remember what @sirbuzzk said to me in a private message and i have never forgotton it.

I do hope my depression is a quick turnaround. Life has that kind of way about it. 

Ive taken alot of little pieces of things people have said to me in support and in helping me. Taking little pieces of advice, words, sentences, anything that will help.

And im moving forward. Steadily. I do hope some day to sit and have a coffee with members/players from casinogrounds.

To somehow say thankyou.❤.

Day 15 on my fight. (Better)

Craig smith❤.

11/8/2018.

Hello all my friends, i have not been active on the forum since tuesday 7/8/2018.  Day 11.

This is day 14 fighting depression, 10 th august 2018 and yesterday i was seeing about a treatment to help me.

I am ok at the moment and i feel inside me things are starting to turn. But it is a process i will take a day at a time.

I am on the road to recovery i feel now. Things are looking better.

Anyway i wanted to share that with you. Let you all no how i am doing. When my depression lifts i will be back to being me. Still have chronic anxiety but that to me is so much better than this horrible depression. I have been controlling my anxiety for years. The depression is like someone standing on my head constantly.

Now with this treatment i am on i have started to fight the depression backwards and im hoping it will lift sooner rather than later.

Things are looking up members/players. Without casinogrounds who no's what i may have done or whare i would be.

Very impressed with @jankkee win on legend of the pharoah's big bets. Over 4000 euro's jankkee won.

And @SuperSmask getting out of jail on knights life. Last spin of the bonus made it and smask saved the day with an 810 euro win.

Day 14 on the fight. (Better)

10/8/2018.

Craig smith.