ToejamDV Posted 16 January, 2017 Share Posted 16 January, 2017 Last week I finally accepted I had a problem ! Put a few beers in me and my gambling was just getting stupid, during the week I'd put down £300 to £450 across the week and play small bets, get me drunk and I was putting in £5k and betting £10 a spin, then £20, then £100... I even made it up to £200 spins at one point. So.... it's time to accept it's out of control, I've cancelled all my accounts and signed up for every permanent self exclusion list I can find (the Casino's are actually really helpful with closing everything down). Thankfully I'm one of the lucky few who can leave on a high note and without a loss, I was just tired of everything being overshadowed by feeling ashamed of myself for the amount I've gambled. Good luck to the rest of you out there, don't do what I did and make these stupid bets, it may have worked out ok for me in the end but damn it was close at times, not worth the risk ! Link to comment
Nosound113 Posted 16 January, 2017 Share Posted 16 January, 2017 Good luck, Chuck! You're not alone with problems. Glad that you opened your heart to us Hope you can drink beer and enjoy them the next time <3 Link to comment
Ziexor Posted 16 January, 2017 Share Posted 16 January, 2017 Stay strong and Hope you can find yourself a New hobby. Once time addicted, always addicted. Gambling addiction is a bad dissease that eat you up from inside... Best tip is to find yourself a hobby Link to comment
ToejamDV Posted 16 January, 2017 Author Share Posted 16 January, 2017 Cheers, I know I'll beat it, I'm an all or nothing kind of guy and I'm just closing off all the avenues for me gamble to cancel out the drunken attempts.... As for my gambling problem, it's odd I wouldn't necessarily call it an addiction as I didn't feel the need that I must fire up the PC and gamble, but I will confess that when I did play I wanted to chase the buzz of a big win... the bigger you win the less satisfaction you get from the next one too.... (While I say it wasn't an addiction in my own mind I have fully accepted it as being a problem regardless of what badge I choose to put on it) On the whole I played very sensibly and just for fun.... until I got drunk..... then I was making silly bets, chasing losses.... I'm sure most of you know the drill. I'm just grateful I'm one of the lucky few who got a big win each time it got stupid, still doesn't cancel out the shame you feel the next day knowing how much you nearly lost.... Link to comment
Ziexor Posted 16 January, 2017 Share Posted 16 January, 2017 Bigger Bets to chase the buzz, losing controll, chasing loses.. Its all sounds like me for 10 years ago and i have gambled for like 23 years.. Even when i did win 10k euros i wasent satisfied. I just wanted another bigger win.. To the end i dident play to win, But to lose.. Now i have learned the hard way and have accepted that if i even win, i lose. So i stay clean. Link to comment
Nosound113 Posted 16 January, 2017 Share Posted 16 January, 2017 6 minutes ago, Ziexor said: Bigger Bets to chase the buzz, losing controll, chasing loses.. Its all sounds like me for 10 years ago and i have gambled for like 23 years.. Even when i did win 10k euros i wasent satisfied. I just wanted another bigger win.. To the end i dident play to win, But to lose.. Now i have learned the hard way and have accepted that if i even win, i lose. So i stay clean. Idd. When I spiraled out of control and lost all my winnings + savings 2 years ago and my real life balance was ZERO I realized I didn't play to win. I lost one bullet after another and deposited higher and higher deposits. It was like I wanted to lose all money so I couldn't play anymore. Today, I do play slots. Not at the same scale, but some times I do play for more then I can afford to do. But I always think back on how I could deposit 30k on one day just to make insane spins for 40 minutes and feel satisfied that I lost it all.. Weird :3~ Link to comment
NudgeShuffle Posted 16 January, 2017 Share Posted 16 January, 2017 5 hours ago, Nosound113 said: But I always think back on how I could deposit 30k on one day just to make insane spins for 40 minutes and feel satisfied that I lost it all.. Weird :3~ It's weird because I know the feeling you describe. Perhaps it's your internal consciousness accepting the inevitable and just hoping to get it over and done with :-) People quitting gambling due to problem gambling seems quite a common theme on this forum Link to comment
ToejamDV Posted 16 January, 2017 Author Share Posted 16 January, 2017 10 minutes ago, NudgeShuffle said: People quitting gambling due to problem gambling seems quite a common theme on this forum I think that's a positive thing in a way, people sharing their experiences, especially some of the guys streaming really helped me realise I had a problem developing before it bankrupt me. Link to comment
NudgeShuffle Posted 17 January, 2017 Share Posted 17 January, 2017 7 hours ago, ToejamDV said: I think that's a positive thing in a way, people sharing their experiences, especially some of the guys streaming really helped me realise I had a problem developing before it bankrupt me. Yes I agree it's a positive thing. I have my doubts as to whether this is the best place to help support those individuals but time will tell. In regards to your personal situation toejam - did you ever consider that alcohol was your problem and not gambling? Link to comment
David Labowsky Posted 17 January, 2017 Share Posted 17 January, 2017 Very powerful of you mate, thanks for sharing your process here. <3 Link to comment
ToejamDV Posted 17 January, 2017 Author Share Posted 17 January, 2017 10 hours ago, NudgeShuffle said: In regards to your personal situation toejam - did you ever consider that alcohol was your problem and not gambling? Thankfully I'm ok with Alcohol (well to an extent) Worth flagging as one to consider though, I actually very rarely drink (probably about twice a month) I just have a bad habit of drinking too much when I do. Add to that the lure of gambling and the two together resulted in a bad combination. I guess having said that the drink was at least part of the problem, either one without the other was fine, but the lack of restraint after drinking escalated the gambling to a stupid level. Link to comment
ToejamDV Posted 21 January, 2017 Author Share Posted 21 January, 2017 C*co.... bollocks..... f*ck..... 21.co.uk took so bloody long processing my last withdrawal that I kept the account open and fell for the trap of gambling again...... It's a double edged sword really..... i lost a whole LOAD of money and was really kicking myself, feeling like shit, but..... errrr.... ummmm..... well, then this happened on a really really stupid bed (my 3rd ever £500 spin).... (And you have my word this is real money..... I'd already cashed out £15k.... I'd currently in that state of shock where this really really doesn't seem real.... I think I need a beer ! And I really really need to stop f*cking gambling, even though it does appear to work ! C*ck.... I want to give the message to others that gambling is bad..... but I don't want to stop winning.... arse !!!!! Link to comment
ToejamDV Posted 21 January, 2017 Author Share Posted 21 January, 2017 I really should record my retarded gambling.... I could make a fortune on you tube too !!! Link to comment
LetsGiveItASpin Posted 24 January, 2017 Share Posted 24 January, 2017 Thanks for sharinb buddy, It's really time to quit and get help and please for your own sake, do it before you lose it all back again. Best regards, Kim Link to comment
Beenji Posted 24 January, 2017 Share Posted 24 January, 2017 Holy f***, please stop, casino is gonna want their money back soon. With that amount of money you could travel to some random island in Asia where they dont even have internet and get your thoughts away from gambling or something Link to comment
ToejamDV Posted 24 January, 2017 Author Share Posted 24 January, 2017 Trust me guys, it's not going back in.... I'm done... I took my friends out for dinner post win and confessed to my nearest and dearest that I'm an idiot and have developed a gambling problem ( That's really bl**dy difficult to do in person... ) So it's out in the open, I've got the support (In the form of friends who are instructed to remove one of my testicles if I gamble again !!!) and will never gamble again. The main thing for me now is accepting that I was an idiot and I slipped.... I haven't failed, it was a slip and not an excuse to give up and go back to gambling... And hell how do i ever get a buzz out of it again after that ! Link to comment
Beenji Posted 24 January, 2017 Share Posted 24 January, 2017 Yeah, you can probably never get a buzz compared to this again. I've noticed on certain streamers/youtubers that their bet amount is constantly increasing, and they just want more and more before they think it's worth cashing out, I'm sure at least some of these people will be in big trouble with money one day, unless some of them already are. Crazy to see how some of these people won something that's a decent one year salary in only one hour, and then just play it all away again without cashing out shit because they wanted even more.. Link to comment
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